the one with little faith...

I feel rather sheepish to be writing so much about all the things I have never quit gotten a hold of in the Bible. It seems to me now that it is painfully obvious! I have read the Gospels more times than I can remember, but in my recent readings in Matthew I am continually finding that I have missed so many things.

Growing up I used to wonder about the disciples. I thought 'how could they have missed it?' But then I would think that often times Jesus spoke in stories that always had me confused and it was likely the same for the disciples. But Jesus didn't only use stores. He repeatedly told the disciples that he was going to die and rise again.

haha I find that so hilarious! He said it as plane as day. And yet none of them expected him to be resurrected. Thomas refused to believe it until he had proof. I am temped to think poorly of those disciples and their 'little faith.' But then I wonder, just how many things has Jesus told me and I, for whatever reason, missed it. Not because he neglected to make himself clear, but because I neglected to make myself faithful.

I am the one with little faith. Imagine all the good night's of sleep I might have had if I just held on to my faith instead of my fear.